Beyond the Sorrow

“Sometimes the pain reminds us we are alive, the hurt reminds us of how precious joy truly is and the memories remind us of what we are capable of.” ~ Angela Nichols

I’m reading a short book titled “Beyond the Sorrow” by Tammy Trent. Tammy lost her husband is a diving accident. Being a young married couple they thought they had a long life ahead of them and had been discussing starting a family just before he passed.* How sad…sometimes I think people who lose their significate other to death are the lucky ones. No offense, but at least they didn’t leave by choice or because their love failed. I know it hurts just the same but God had other plans for them and they were chosen to leave this earth by His calling. When someone leaves you, it makes you feel…flawed…damaged.

Tammy & Trent

Anyway, I really like this book. It’s perfect for when I take breaks or am sitting at my desk waiting for a program to run. It’s short and to the point, filled with short stories, bible verses and meaningful inspirations. It’s layout is visually stimulating, too. If any of you find reading more like a chore but you want the inspiration and encouragement, this book is highly recommended. Some of it just pops out at you.

She believes like I do: there is a higher power named God that is always there for us. We are never alone. I use to feel very alone, even when I was surrounded by people, but in the past couple years, I find this devine comfort in knowing that God lives in me. He’s not just in the heavens, He lives in our spirit. That’s why when we have ‘gut feelings’, it’s really our inner spirit that is urging us to move one direction or another. You may hear people say how God speaks to them. Some have dreams, some hear or feel specific words, but God doesn’t necessarily have an audible voice. Instead of adhering to these urgings, we tend to take the path of least resistance and that path usually involves a lot of negative consequences. Once we learn to heed this urging and act upon it, it gets easier. Not that we stop experiencing pain or heart break but we come to a point where following His path, His voice, becomes second nature. This is a process and it’s a part of my walk in faith. Slowly I am catching on but at least I am catching on. Although I’d love to hurry this process along, I remind myself that it’s a walk with God, not a jog, not a run.

Back to the book. Tammy described how she was trimming a tree her husband had planted for her. She was careful not to damage it because of the memories and meaning it held, but her saw was not big enough for the job. She struggled with it for an hour and finally collapsed in tears asking God if it was always going to be this way. If her husband were here, he’d know what to do. She was overcome with saddness and despair. Just then her neighbor came home and the petite little woman instinctively said, “You need a chainsaw?” Tammy chuckled as her neighbor emerged from her garage packing a full-sized chainsaw. This tiny woman had exactly what she needed and she didn’t even think to ask. Who would have thought, she of all people, would have a chainsaw? It just goes to show that when we ask God, He will deliver, and sometimes…in ways we least expect it.

“Don’t pray for it to be easier, pray that you learn from it.” ~ Angela Nichols

When you blame others, you give up your power to change. ~Author Unknown

“Give, and you will receive. Your gift will return to you in full—pressed down, shaken together to make room for more, running over, and poured into your lap. The amount you give will determine the amount you get back.” Luke 6:38 NLT

*In doing a little more research I discovered that the diving accident occurred in Jamacia on 9/10/01. Due to air restriction from 9/11 she was without family for 10 days. It never ceases to amaze me. I think I have suffered hell and then I read someone else’s story. Where ever you are, rejoice! I don’t care if you feel like you are in the pit of hell itself, rejoice! And tell yourself that with God at your side, you will perservere. (James 1:2-8) If you would like to read more about Tammy, check this out:

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