Memories…

Just wanted to post my new art. Here’s to a wonderful weekend with my kids. I’ve gotten to spend more time with them then usual lately. Saturday night was the first night in a few months since we’ve all been together at the same time. Funny…kids grow right before our eyes. They are little time bombs…cuz before you know it – BOOM! Years have went by and you find yourself remembering all their firsts: first tooth, first steps, first words, first boo-boo, first day of Kindergarten…all the way up to the first day behind the wheel, graduating high school and first day of college. Where did the time go?? Who hit fast forward??

But I look at the present, and I’m so proud. I did good – especially since I raised them practically by myself. My boys’ dad has no idea what he’s done our kids by not being there. But I can’t focus on that or hold a grudge. I have to give that anger to God. (Romans 12:19) However, kudos to Kelley’s dad. My parents were always there for me, too…and I owe my success to them. I could’ve really went down a few horrible roads if not for their support and guidance. (Some of that guidance I didn’t adhere to right away, but it stuck.) I know they weren’t perfect…and neither am I, but they did the best they could…and so have I. (Ecc. 7:20) Do I regret some of my choices? Hell yes. Do I feel some of my choices hurt my kids? Definitely. Can I go back and change it? Unfortunately, no. but I love each one of my children dearly…with a love that is undescribable. And all I can do is look forward. Make each day better then the day before. Each one of them holds a special place in my heart. Much like God loves each of His children. Imagining God as our Holy Father brings Him into a brighter light. While my father wasn’t the most loving, I know my Father in heaven is. He has nothing but unconditional love for all His children – and I’m thankful to be one of them. But just like a Father, He wants us to live right…(Deut. 8:5) I know He forgives me and unlike before, I am determined to live right by Him. To live this life He gave me to the fullest. I can’t be discouraged, I just have to learn and grow knowing He is there. (Joshua 1:9)

Looking foward to the future, I see great opportunities for my children. I pray that God walks with them like He did me. I pray that I can be there for them like my parents. It’s scary to think of my kids making some of the decisions I’ve made over the years. Probably the one thing that scares me most. Makes me want to call my mom and apologize for all the hell I put her through…but…she knows. Just like I will someday, too.

“Know then in your heart that as a man disciplines his son, so the Lord your God disciplines you.” ~ Deuteronomy 8:5

“…be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you where ever you go.” ~ Joshua 1:9

“Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil; cling to what is good.” ~ Romans 12:9

“Do not take revenge, my friend, but leave room for God’s wrath, for it is written: ‘It is mine to avenge; I will replay’ says the Lord.” ~ Romans 12:19

“Do not be overcome with evil, but overcome evil with good.” ~ Romans 12:21

“There is not a righteous man on earth who does what is right and never sins.” ~ Ecclesiastes 7:20

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